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Well, I just want to say I love this song like crazy. One Republic's "Apologize" is just way awesome.

 

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground

I may not be like the other girls,

Who remember the colour of your shirt or your shoes,

Or the way you wear your hair,

But that was not all I saw in you,

I chose to see the smile beneath the layers of brand you wore,

 

One material item that I would remember would be your car,

I found a way to look past the paint of your BMW,

And saw how you tried to find you way over,

 

You are more than an average guy I saw walking through the front door,

Seeing you stand there did not moved my heart,

Instead it moved my soul.

 

j o e Y

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.

I love you now. I love you always. 

 

 

 

 

Oh, you bloody son of a bitch. Who the hell you think you are asking my friends about me ? What or who gave you the fucked up rights to even talk about me ?

You are one person where I am willing to pay tickets to see you burn in hell.

j o e Y

When you have held out for so long and decides that time has ran out, you find the courage to let go of the people who you once thought you will be able to love forever.

Perhaps you were not meant to be together after all the test you have out up with you be with the person.

Sometimes, the best relationship occurs when you remain friends and staying friends are not easy, but some of us might be able to find the courage and strength to remain that way.

Despite what has been said and done, you deserve that much as a thank you and it does feel painful leaving the only person you have been faithful to over the pass to years.

There doesn't have to be someone else, there doesn't have to be a hideous break. Well, we are who we are. Being able to handle the break maturely and being able to forgive is what maybe the most important factor to being friends.

P/S: You may have been the very best and worst of what has happened over the two years, but I am glad it is you who made me laugh and cry. Despite everything, I hope you know I have the heart and space to forgive you, while I will always wish you well. Thank you for loving me, and thank you for being the one I found and grew to love. I really did love you very much, Ryan. You deserve that much for putting up with my fuss and insecurities. Muaxxx.

If the time is right, there is always another hope in life and love.

j o e Y

Meaning (Answers.com) :

1. A judgment or decision reached after deliberation

2. The close or last part; the end or finish

3. A position arrived at by reasoning from premises or general principles

 

Can I have my own conclusion ?

Keep me sane

Concluded in for me

You may be the only one

Or maybe not

There could be someone else

To conclude it for you

Besides myself

 

j o e Y

Saying This Prayer Again

 

It has been a tough, challenging year. Yet so much can be learnt from this year alone. Being able to live life to the fullest is one way of taking life to the maximum, and that means being to appreciate life which we will never be told the end.

 

Hope was something I always believed in, but I never have embraced it so much that it lives within my soul. The world hopes for many things – peace, love, success, happiness, growth. The thing I have always hoped for is far simple for me, but yet it may be the best thing that can happen in life.

 

Firstly, I always have hope in gaining love and that ‘the love’ will be someone for them, trying out all the challenges thrown with calamity and rationality. I hate to see the person I love give up, as I am not asking for perfection but merely a dedication in the life we have together. You are the strength of my life, and it is I who will continue to hold you hand and head up high, as long as you don’t fail on me.  You have my word on that – faith and love is all I ask from you. I don’t want to be frozen inside for all eternity, when you can change that frozen state.

 

I can’t change the world, but having a smile, even if the smile may be plastered can change the actions of friends around you, even the one you love. Its’ an impact is a ripple of smiles and togetherness. How can I destroy the smiles on others when I seem to be the only one having this prolonged anguish ?

 

It may seem selfish to ask for personal benefits, but I have in mind, not only the ones I love, but the once who I care about, the once who are more than confidants.  May the world and everyone’s suffering come to an end for the benefit of all.

 

Do unfreeze the state of mind and heart,

Joey  

Crippled Hope

 

Crippled hope when you seem a distance,

And that is when I became a distance to you and myself,

Crippled hope when you became cold,

And it is during this time where I became the ice hearted queen – with no emotions,

Crippled hope when you became unfamiliar,

And I try my best to understand the feeling of going through life in your steps,

Crippled hope when you become the man I never knew,

And this is how I will learn to turn away from the person I hope to love forever,

Crippled hope when I begin to love you for who you are,

And you give me an option to consider my love and devotion for you.

 

Joey

The song could very well represent how I feel now, I mean RIGHT NOW (at this present moment).

Hello boy it's been a while
Guess you'll be glad to know
That I've learned how to laugh and smile
Getting over you was slow
They say old lovers can be good friends
But I never thought I'd really see you
I'd really see you again

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes
I still go crazy
No my heart just can't hold that feeling inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby you know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

You say she satisfies your mind
Tells you all of her dreams
I know how much that means to you
I realize that I was blind
Just when I thought I was over you
I see your face and it just ain't true
No it just ain't true

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes
I still go crazy
That old flame comes alive
It's starts burning inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby
You know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

I go crazy
You know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy
No my heart just can't hide
That old feeling inside
Way deep down inside
I go crazy
You know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

Crazy

Can't you see that I have tried to make things all the better,

Sometimes, I wished I could tell you exactly how I feel,

But I can't bear knowing that you will be upset or disappointed,

Things are worsen when you refuse to talk about how you feel,

I will try to understand no matter what - even if it hurts me,

I rather be the one feeling hurt than you,

When I thought I stopped loving you,

It is then I see you as the human being that truly belongs in my heart.

 

Love, Joey

 

~ Love is very patient and kind, never jealous or envious, never boastful or proud, never haughty or selfish or rude. Love does not demand its own way. It is not irritable or touchy. It does not hold grudges and will hardly even notice when others do it wrong.  If you love someone you will be loyal to him no matter what the cost. You will always believe in them, always expect the best of them, and always stand your ground in defending them. ~

 

Love is very patient and kind, never jealous or envious, never boastful or proud, Never haughty or selfish or rude. Love does not demand its own way. It is not irritable or touchy. It does not hold grudges and will hardly even notice when others do it wrong. It is never glad about injustice, but rejoices whenever truth wins out. If you love someone you will be loyal to him no matter what the cost. You will always believe in them, always expect the best of them, and always stand your ground in defending them.

Love costs. Love is unselfishness. It is honesty, integrity, humor, compassion, empathy, understanding, patience, self-care, a listening heart and ear.  Love is letting go, rather than clinging to. Love is embracing, rather than abandoning. Love is letting go of hurts and pain, offering forgiveness and peace in their place. Love never needs nor waits to be acknowledged, but continues to encircle all. Love is setting free, rather than judging. Love is straining every personal resource to allow others rise from the quicksand of their circumstances. Love will not permit us to act from fear of others or the unknown. Though there may be things of which we are afraid, love will provide a buffer zone to enable us to function while acknowledging our limitation. Love never plots or plans harm to others, rather it surrounds the others with thoughts of loving.

 

Adapted from http://en.bibleinfo.com/topics/topic.html?id=174

Despite what has been said about how I feel towards my relationships,

Deep down I do really love to care for someone special,

I don't want something just for fun or games,

I actually wanna care and be a better person by learning from the other,

Wouldn't it be great to have someone who understands you,

But at the same time, respects your decision and not push you to make a decision,

This is the kind of love and relationship I would want,

It is to have someone to cherish, love, care, teach, learn, support, and smile at.

 

love always,

joey